Another Update Our Life and Death Struggle Another Really Big Scare

December 24, 2009

I have been living a life that I would have never asked for if I had been given an option. But life didn’t allow me that luxury. What I am talking about here is the struggle to stay alive that my lover, my business partner, my life partner, my everything, Geri has been going through.

Like many who live in the United States we are small business owners who are struggling to keep our business open. We also can’t get health insurance due to preexisting conditions at any price. So she delayed health care till it was almost to late. She now has multiple conditions that make it very difficult to treat her. Its a combo plate of problems that include her spleen, her blood oxygen levels, blooding clotting factors, her liver, and water retention just to name a few.

One thing is certain is that she is loosing blood somewhere somehow internally. They suspect that the problem is with her spleen. Surgeons where summoned today to talk about our options. However, they started the conversation off based on faulty information from the lab. Apparently, the lab was showing that her kidney’s where almost completely dysfunctional. This would make any surgery extremely risky.

The conversation was grim and it centered about what could be done to extend her life. It took an enormous effort on my part to stay calm. I knew that things were bad but it is very difficult to discuss extending the life of someone that you love. What should you do, who should you listen too, and who should you trust. This scene or a similar one is being played out on a daily basis all across America. So that which I write about is not unique except that it is happening in the center of our world.

The problem was that the information about her kidney’s wrong. When the doctor mentioned her kidney’s I had to stop him and ask him to repeat what he just said which he did. I spoke up and mentioned that after a month this was the first mention of her kidney’s failing. At that point the surgeon appeared confused and surprised. He excused himself to look into the situation. When we did not appear after 30 minutes I assumed that he was called into surgery.

It was then that Geri confided in me that she no longer has a fear of death. This is something that has loomed over her during these health struggles. I long ago had an out of body near death experience and had lost any fear of death. However, my story was of on comfort to her. So what she was now telling me was a significant change for her. As I listened to her I began to embrace the fact that our time together may be limited. At times like this you are flooded with memories of things that were wrongly said and missed opportunities.

I was now dealing with a litany of would of, could of, and should of’s. Shortly thereafter, I lost it and began to weep and sob as I am doing now. I was also filled with anger. The kind of anger that one expresses to their God in situations like this. After two divorces and many relationships I had found true love with Geri. The thoughts of facing life without her where becoming unbearable. I quietly, whimpered that I needed to go home to cry. I didn’t want her to see me like this. I wanted to be stronger but I could not muster the strength. Even now, I feel guilty for going home.

Eventually, after much weeping and sobbing I would fall asleep. Later, the phone rang and caller id indicated the call was from the hospital so I took it. It was Geri informing me that the lab screwed up and her kidney’s were working as they should. Finally, some god news I thought.

I will return to the hospital again later today to map out what we are going to do on the health front. She will likely never return to any form of employment and that creates a whole other set of situations. Well, it’s 3 in the morning and I will end this and try to catch up on some sleep.

Its a sad tale for the holiday season, but life is often sad when others are rejoicing. I truly wish and pray that you all have a safe and prosperous holiday season. I would ask this on small favor please remember us in yours prayers.

Thank you all so very much,
Urban and Geri

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